Reflections

It's a little past 1 am, and soon I will finally be off to bed. I first tried to hit the pillows at 10:30, but my racing mind would not let me drift off. I've heard that if you can't fall asleep in 20 minutes, get up and do something and try again later. So I grabbed my latest book - Twenty Wishes by Debbie Macomber - and cuddled up on the downstairs couch to try and drift off. And I did, but not completely. I toddled off to my own bed, grabbed hubby's hand, and tried hard to re-create the almost-asleep state I was in on the couch. No such luck. My mind just started racing again. Once again, I got up. This time I sat at the computer and tried to get some e-mails sent out I had been neglecting. And then I started blog reading. Blogs I hadn't read in a while. Caught up on the goings-on of some internet friends and took a look at some of the blogs I read for inspiration. And now, finally, I am ready for bed.

I know, boring post, but I'm feeling a bit reflective right now. Especially thinking over this last week. And planning some changes to my daily routine that will help me feel a little less guilty by the end of the week. Not ready to share specifics, but suffice to say that my desire to be more of a Proverbs 31 woman are really starting to become larger than life. I want more AHHHH moments and less ARGGGGH moments. And it needs to start inside of me. I need to be more aware of moments instead of intent on schedules.

That's it - my reflections for now. I'm tired, and going to bed, and hopefully, sleep will find me soon. Because before I know it, my children will be ready to start the day, and I'll be wondering why I'm so tired.

Good night.